Clean, teach, dead tired.

So today was kinda productive. I was cleaning like a tornado, ipod classic on my head sorting clothes & gathering trash, organizing shoes, rushing around so fast and making myself exhausted. It is so worth it though. I want the house to be clean and smell good and be organized. There is nothing worse for a mom than to be looking for something when in a hurry or being late because they cannot find anything they are looking for.  So I have been working really hard and it is almost back-breaking labor to clean and still have more and more cleaning to do. lol  I tried so hard to keep going but at some point you have to rest and eat & drink some water to replenish your body back to good. I think if children knew how hard us parents worked to keep them happy, healthy and safe ...guess what? They still wouldn't care. That is part of being an adult I think, being not only grown but handling the serious stuff and working out problems and solving the troubles that may come along in front of you and your loved ones. Sometimes I think, jeez...I need a break! But I am too bull-headed to stop and rest. I am like a steam train, blow a lot of hot air, get a lot done. lol But seriously, I give it up for any parent, father, mother , relatives who care for children these days. Treat them right, but also teach them to respect you and value what they have. I am very blessed and I hope that one day my children see what joy they brought into my life. I was reading my middle daughter a bedtime story and she was like: "read another book Mom".  I love it, to hear the eagerness in her voice to learn. As parents and caregivers of children we can be their greatest teacher.  Just a little something to think on until later. I am beat, I have to go to sleep now...later people.

Marsha Marsha Marsha!

Last night I had to listen to someone I like talk about meeting the girl of his dreams and how it was love at first sight but she's married and it was a crock of shit...I just can't stand being put on the back burner for "the one" , why can't I be "the One" I am bad ass... and I deserve the fucking best damn it. I know one can not always get their way but sometimes it is just like "what gives?" why am I always in competition with other chicks? Is this what I am destined to do? Chase others and the ones chasing me get the shaft? lol Oh well, I am a friend and I do not want to go back on my word of being said friend but If you like someone and they like you but they just like someone more than they like you...you're screwed.
I heard a song that a friend turned me onto by the band Since October called The Way You Move. Awesome...guys just see the outside, well if the inside wasn't as beautiful then we wouldn't be able to make others fall so hard, right? Because it is also how your attitude is and how you carry yourself. Not just your genes. lol Oh well, good looking people with a good heart & great personality are always like unicorns...fantasy, completely rare , and hard as hell to find.  Mind you I have looked for the total package and keep coming up short. And that wasn't just a joke about my height. lol (bugh-dum-pum ching!) Yeah somewhat on a jokester here but when it is the only thing to keep you sane you learn to adapt. I just don't want to take away anyone else's happiness. I want my own, my own happiness to be bubbly about. My own piece of heaven to have and to hold...and we don't even have to get married! I am sick of the wrong guys. Sick of the bullsh*t and I want to just have something go my way for once. My life isn't that sh*tty, but I have not been sublimely happy in a long time. Since I met my Ex husband and look how that turned out.
I am just too cool to be alone, all the time wasted when I could be happy with that someone who understands me and sees me for the wonder I am...and I see them for the wonder they are. Haven't felt right in quite a while and I guess I just don't know what to do with myself. Ok, enough of that crap...Who wants nachos?!

Sons Of Anarchy on FX

"Sons of Anarchy" to return for third season... Tuesday September 7th @10pm 2010. Only on FX! 

OMG! I love this freakin' show SO much I think I'll burst. Did anyone see it? The season two finale?
If you have not seen the first season then I have to recommend buying or renting (buy) the first season of Sons of Anarchy from the wonderful FX tv collection. Best Buy is the best place to find it.
I won't tell you anymore than this show is about a Motor Cycle club called The Sons Of Anarchy or SOA Also referred to as SAMCROW. The main Characters are & The acters behind this amazing show are: Charlie Hunnam aka  "Jackson 'Jax' Teller," SAMCRO's Vice-President. Jax is the son of John Teller, founder of the Sons of Anarchy Motorcycle Club. This life is all he has ever known. Jax is a paradox on two wheels - intelligent, sensitive, and reflective - yet quick-tempered and dangerously reactive. With his irresistible charm and versatility, Hunnam has captured the attention of audiences and critics in both the United Kingdom and Hollywood. Katey Sagal plays "Gemma Teller Morrow,Ron Perlman plays "Clarence 'Clay' Morrow," SAMCRO's President. Jax's stepfather. One of the "Redwood First 9," the founding members of the motorcycle club. Clay suffers from degenerative arthritis. Because he is literally losing his grip, he exerts ruthless control over all other areas of his life. Ron Perlman's (Hellboy) creative collaboration with Guillermo Del Toro began with the director's first film, Cronos, in 1993. The actor and director reunited nine years later for Blade 2. ,Maggie Siff plays "Tara Knowles." Doctor. Pediatrics Resident. Jax's high school sweetheart. The only woman Jax has ever loved. She left Charming to get more out of life. She's back. Siff is delighted to return to a third season of Sons of Anarchy.Mark Boone Junior plays "Robert 'Bobby' Munson," SAMCRO's Secretary. Bobby's a big man with a big voice. Knows his way around explosives. He does an upscale Elvis act in Tahoe. Only Jewish member of SAMCRO. Boone has had a successful acting career spanning two decades, appearing in a plethora of films across all genres. Boone has appeared in blockbuster hits such as Batman Begins, Armageddon, 2 Fast 2 Furious, Get Carter and Die Hard II., Kim Coates plays "Alex 'Tig' Trager," SAMCRO's Sergeant at Arms. Tig is built like a refrigerator. Cold as one too. Fears nothing. Loves to hurt things. Clay's confidant and bodyguard. Kim's film career began in 1991 with The Last Boy Scout. Two Warner Brothers' hits followed: Innocent Blood and The Client. Since that time he has starred in over forty films, including Academy Award winners Black Hawk Down directed by Ridley Scott, and Pearl Harbor directed by Michael Bay.Tommy Flanagan plays "Filip 'Chibs" Telford." Chibs was born in the ghettos of Glasgow, raised on the streets of Belfast. Scrapper tough. A "chib" is Scottish street slang for a blade. Flanagan, a native of Glasgow, Scotland showcased his talent in the Rain Dog Theatre for three years. His stage credits include Macbeth, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest and Wasted I & II.Theo Rossi plays "Jean Carlos 'Juice' Ortiz," SAMCRO's Intelligence Officer. Juice has lightning bolts inked onto his shaved skull. Hacker, smart as hell. Enjoys chemicals of all kinds. Rossi studied acting at The Lee Strasberg Theatre Institute in New York where he appeared in several theatre productions including Sexual Perversity in Chicago, The Duck Variations, The Sandbox and Boys' Life.Ryan Hurst plays "Harry 'Opie' Winston." Stocky but boyish. Ron Howard on steroids. Jax's best friend. Still suffering from his wife Donna's death, wants to immerse himself into the club. A remarkably versatile actor with marked skills behind the camera, Ryan Hurst is best known for his breakout performance starring opposite Denzel Washington in Disney's mega-hit Remember the Titans, for which he also directed the film's second unit footage. Additional high-profile feature film roles include Steven Spielberg's Saving Private Ryan, the Coen Brothers' The Ladykillers with Tom Hanks, We Were SoldiersPatch Adams with Robin Williams and Rules of Engagement with Samuel L. Jackson. Recent independent film work includes starring in Noble Things with Michael Parks and Chasing the Green alongside Jeremy London. William Lucking plays "Piermont 'Piney' Winston," SAMCRO elder. Consigliere. Opie's father and co-founder of the Sons of Anarchy. Piney suffers from emphysema. He rides with an oxygen tank. William Lucking has amassed an impressive list of over 150 film and television credits. He's worked with some of the most acclaimed directors in Hollywood, including Steven Soderbergh (Erin BrockovichThe Limey), Peter Berg (The Rundown), Curtis Hanson (The River Wild), Brett Ratner (Red Dragon) and Anthony Hopkins (Slipstream). His television credits include series regular roles on Outlaws, Big Hawaii and Jessie, as well as appearances in ER, Millennium, JAG, West Wing, Hustle, The Division and The X-Files.David Labrava is a newcomer to the scene. He started as a camera operator for the Zalman King company (9 1/2 Weeks, Red Shoe Diaries), where he hosted the Whiplash ZK series. He then did an independent project titled FTW, from Picture Perfect Productions. He will soon be seen in the feature film Fencewalker from Chris Carter (The X-Files). Labrava has been riding motorcycles for 30 years. When the Sons of Anarchy pilot started shooting he was cast as "Happy" and has been a part of the show ever since, also serving as Technical Advisor. Labrava is also an accomplished Glass artist. He writes a monthly column in the Hot Rod Magazine Ol' Skool Rodz called "Burnin' Rubber with Jimmy Carbone." He owns a tattoo shop in Northern California and also tattoos there. He is a five diploma Harley Davidson mechanic, graduating from the Motorcycle Mechanics Institute, and has built a bike that was on the cover of the Iron Horse magazine. He builds Hot Rod cars for fun, not profit, and is filming a documentary.

Tayler Sheridan plays "Deputy Chief David Hale," Charming Police. Hale has a new vision for the small town. Growth and prosperity. He and his political allies want to oust SAMCRO and commercialize Charming. Noted for his intensity in the characters he portrays, Tayler Sheridan has put that intensity to use as the villain in such critically acclaimed series as: CSI, CSI: New York, NYPD Blue and the series premiere of ABC's 10-8. Dayton Callie plays "Chief Wayne Unser," the current sheriff of Charming whose imminent retirement threatens to upset SAMCRO's relationship with the law. Best known for his role as "Charlie Utter" on HBO's Deadwood, veteran actor Dayton Callie has amassed a wealth of film, television and stage credits during his career spanning two decades. This spring he did his first horror movie, Rob Zombie's Halloween 2 which he is looking forward to seeing. I can go on & on but you have to see this show! Go out and seek it. The channel is FX check your listings... get into it. It is like The Sopranos for Motor Cycle clubs! lol

falling in love

falling in love
by: ~PirateGirl~

taking steps to where you are
but still so far away
I'm running faster but seem to go no where at all
wondering if you will catch me
I'm falling
Falling hard   for you
lost inside my head   trying to tell you
if anything is real, what can I do?
this feeling is thick like smoke   and I'm the one on fire
burning up for you like I  usually do
tell me can you feel it too?
trusting my heart,  giving it to you
will you keep it or make me feel blue?
Tell me what to do? I love you

I'm a simple yet complicated woman. This is a contradiction of things, yes? lol I'm sorry. But not really, who says you have to be in the black or white area? I am truely unexpected & I know I have broken a lot of hearts. I feel bad, don't think I don't. I know it sucks to get your heart stomped on. This is something that no one likes to experience. Yes? But if we look at it this way, aren't we all looking for that one person that both people feel a connection? So, if you can & want to find it, you have a number of things to consider when choosing a mate. (Yes, I said MATE) Let's not pretend that sex isn't an issue. lol We want, a friend... someone we can trust with anything, and a lover...there's also the fact that you want to find someone who wants you for you... not who they want you to be. I deal with that a lot. Guys thinking "she's an goody girl", "she's a wicked girl" , why can't I be a bit of both? I say it all the time. No one is perfect here on this earth. I know it may seem like some people come close but you have no idea what is really in their heart.

Only God knows that, but anyways. I just feel like if I could tell people anything like advise when looking for that special person in their life... it's who gets you & you get them. There is that crazy way that you feel good around them, & they return those feelings. It can't work if it is one sided. Be careful... when I was born the nurses nicknamed me "heart breaker". I deffinately did not know or was aware of any good looking qualities I possesed growing up. In fact I always felt like the ugly duckling. LOL Low and behold...I am a woman today & guys are drooling, sceaming, hollering @ me, & all... which is flattering but I want a man who doesn't over do it. It feels good to be told you are attractive but your intelligence is also a very important thing you should be sure of too. Who knows what you can come away with... I think I have personally made some huge mistakes with being too nice which is seen as "leading people on" ... shit people, now & days if you are too up front you are called a bitch. If you are not up front enough, you're a TEASE. WTF! HA HA HA! Give a lady a break. What do you think? Talk to me... somebody say something. Boring....

Eyes won't lie

~Eyes won't Lie~
When you kiss me I feel so much passion
When you hold me close I know just what you're asking
Just telling me that you love me isn't enough
It's when I see the love in your eyes
Your eyes never lie
You can tell me everything I need to know
Look in my eyes and I'll see how much you truly love me

I call you my walking, talking dream
I hold you and the world seems alright to me
feeling whole finally, only you could set me free
when you looked at me
I felt complete, finally I can see
Your eyes can't lie to me

touching you is a dream come true
you feel so good close to me
you smell so good, intoxicating
all I know is in this moment
You own me
100 % there is not other
Only you can make me fly higher everyday

For your love I'll run to you
for your heart , I will be true
forever, forever only you