Last night I had to listen to someone I like talk about meeting the girl of his dreams and how it was love at first sight but she's married and it was a crock of shit...I just can't stand being put on the back burner for "the one" , why can't I be "the One" I am bad ass... and I deserve the fucking best damn it. I know one can not always get their way but sometimes it is just like "what gives?" why am I always in competition with other chicks? Is this what I am destined to do? Chase others and the ones chasing me get the shaft? lol Oh well, I am a friend and I do not want to go back on my word of being said friend but If you like someone and they like you but they just like someone more than they like you...you're screwed.
I heard a song that a friend turned me onto by the band Since October called The Way You Move. Awesome...guys just see the outside, well if the inside wasn't as beautiful then we wouldn't be able to make others fall so hard, right? Because it is also how your attitude is and how you carry yourself. Not just your genes. lol Oh well, good looking people with a good heart & great personality are always like unicorns...fantasy, completely rare , and hard as hell to find. Mind you I have looked for the total package and keep coming up short. And that wasn't just a joke about my height. lol (bugh-dum-pum ching!) Yeah somewhat on a jokester here but when it is the only thing to keep you sane you learn to adapt. I just don't want to take away anyone else's happiness. I want my own, my own happiness to be bubbly about. My own piece of heaven to have and to hold...and we don't even have to get married! I am sick of the wrong guys. Sick of the bullsh*t and I want to just have something go my way for once. My life isn't that sh*tty, but I have not been sublimely happy in a long time. Since I met my Ex husband and look how that turned out.
I am just too cool to be alone, all the time wasted when I could be happy with that someone who understands me and sees me for the wonder I am...and I see them for the wonder they are. Haven't felt right in quite a while and I guess I just don't know what to do with myself. Ok, enough of that crap...Who wants nachos?!
Tell it like it is
"what if people just told the truth?"
About Me
- PiRatEgIrL
- I am Stuburn,BLUNT,out spoken,and RUDE sometimes, go ahead and write me. I like all kinds of weird stuff. Well, it's not weird to me but whatever. Vampires, Zombies, strange and unusual isn't so strange & unusual...lol. Movies & books...love roller coasters but rarely get to ride them. Disneyland is my favorite place to go for fun time. I love rainy days & dancing my butt off when I'm listening to my ipod Classic. I am very computer savy. I love Johnny Depp, and being as loud and out there as possible. Don't care who's watching, I sing along with the songs on the radio. I go to Karaoke at the local bar. I'm kinda good, lol. I go to church every now and then. I believe that a woman's heart is an Ocean filled with secrets she holds from over the years and that there is a special person she will tell those secrets to. True love is real, life is a bitch... and I am just being fabulously fun & fancy free...I am ME.
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